Hungry...

I am hungry all of the time lately!!!! I was positive that my first fill would be all that I needed. Wrong, I have very little restriction and am hungry all of the time. My next fill is next week and I honestly can't wait!

Dr. B told me it might take several fills to get to the right restriction. This is just so different from the first time around with my old band. With the smaller band I was too restricted at times. Now I feel like I could eat everything in sight and not have a problem. Fortunately I have been pretty good about my food choices and I stop eating when I know I've had enough but I would be lying if I said it has been easy. In fact, it has been much harder than I expected. Each day is a challenge for me. I'm optimistic that things will get better once I get another fill. Until then, I'm just going to take it one day at a time and not stress myself out.

I hope you are all well. I will post again soon, hopefully when I'm much better spirits!

Good Night!
Jenn

Surviving...

The past few weeks have been incredibly stressful to say the least. Working two jobs is kicking my butt and I seem to have a constant headache. I think I am finally fully recovered from my surgery. Overall I feel pretty good. My port area irritates me from time to time. It's almost like it's trying to remind me that it's there. I don't really feel the port unless I press down. I got my first fill last week. I was a little nervous because I didn't want to have any of the same issues that I had with my old band. To be honest, it doesn't feel like I've had a fill at all. I still have very little restriction and seem to be hungry pretty often. Dr. B said it might take a few fills to get to where I need to be. I'm okay with that, I would rather take this at a slow pace than rush and be over-filled. I will see him again in a few weeks for another fill.

Being stressed is challenging right now since I've always been an emotional eater. Without restriction in my band it's really easy to overeat. I have to be diligent in my food choices and make sure that I'm only eating what I should be. For the most part I'm doing okay with this but I have to be honest, I do have moments when I want to binge like the old days. The difference is I have more control now. I also don't keep foods in my house that are easy to binge on. I think that's half the battle. I also know what my triggers are so I try to find an alternative to deal with these feelings. My husband has been a great source of support for me. Without him, I know this would be even more difficult than it is right now. A support system is crutial for anyone who has had weightloss surgery. You might not think it's important but trust me, it really is. We all need someone there for us, someone who is supportive and understanding. Someone who can help you through the hard times and be there to enjoy the good times. It always makes me sad when I hear about people who go through this whole process alone. I'm not saying you can't do it on your own, I'm just saying there are times when it's nice to have someone to lean on.

I know I'm going to have my good days and my bad days, just like everyone else. I just have to take a step back to enjoy and appreciate all of the amazing things that life has to offer.

I wish you all a healthy and happy Easter!!

Warmly,
Jenn