Hanging in there...

Sooo, a lot has happened since my last post. I had an appointment with Dr. B about two weeks ago to discuss a revision over to a bypass. I have really given this a lot of thought and I honestly believe that the band is just not for me. I know this probably sounds crazy since I have had my band for almost three years. Well I actually had my first band until this past February when Dr. B discovered that it was too small so we went for a larger band but, in total, December 26th will be three years. I have really given this my all and I'm exhausted. I have very little in my large band now and I can't go any higher because I am too tight and won't be able to keep anything down. The problem is, I am not losing any weight. I could understand if I was eating things I shouldn't be but I am really not.

Dr. B was really understanding and supportive of my decision. He knows that I have worked really hard and I have truely given it all that I've got. At this point it's up to my "new" insurance company to decide if they will cover the revision. It makes me sick that total strangers will decide if I "qualify" for a surgery that I need. Although the band has not worked well for me I still know that I won't be successful on my own. Even with all of the changes I have made, this is a battle I cannot fight without the surgery.

I have only told a few people about this decision because I just don't want to justify this surgery to anyone. This is my choice, a choice that I made for me, period!! I did have a close friend ask me if I would recommend the band to others. Here's my thought on that: I think any weightloss surgery needs to be researched fully and chosen for the right reasons. Just because the band hasn't quite worked for me doesn't mean it's not the right tool for someone else. I know that all surgeries have their pros and cons. I would just say that this is a lifetime committment and if you're not ready to take all of the stepss necessary and you want to bitch and moan about all of the requirements pre-op, then you're clearly not ready for any surgery.

I will update when I hear back from my insurance company. In my heart I know that if it's meant to be it will happen and if not, well, I'm just going to have to live with it and move on.

Jenn