Some days are better than others but don't we all experience that? I keep thinking I'm going to wake up one day and all of this is just going to be easy. No more thinking about what I'm going to eat or planning my meals in advance, no worrying about food getting stuck or my stomach growling so loud that people ask me if I'm okay.The reality is I chose this, I made this decision so I have to stop complaining and suck it up,period!!!
Okay, so maybe I'm being a little hard on myself here. It has gotten easier over time so I really can't complain. Lately I have been feeling kind of down and when that happens I feel ovrwhelmed by everything in my life. I think this is something that happens to a lot of people. I use to turn to food during these moments, it always had a way of bringing me comfort even if it was only temporary. Now that I have developed a healthy relationship with food I have to deal with my feelings and that's not always easy. But, I'm okay and I know this will pass.
I was suppose to have a fill a few weeks ago but I had a flat tire and had to reschedule. Dr. B is out for a few weeks so I will have a fill when he returns. I'm still feeling hungry most of the time and I still have to be dilligent not to overeat! I am doing okay for the most part. I did get stuck a few times and that was a good reminder to slow down and chew my food. Most times I don't feel like I have the band at all but then I think about the amount of food I use to eat and how much I can eat now and I know there's a huge difference. Even without having restriction, I can only manage small amounts of food at any given time. It's funny though because even with small amounts of food I'm afraid it's too much. Does that make any sense???
Anyway, I haven't been on the scale since my last fill over a month ago so I have no idea if I've lost any more weight. I did have someone I haven't seen in a few months ask me if I have lost weight because she said she could see a difference. My clothes are fitting pretty much the way they were right before my recent surgery. I'm really trying so hard not to get caught up with my weightloss right now. I'm focused on eating right and being active. I know that if I weigh myself and there isn't a loss I'm going to be really hard on myself and it's just not worth punishing myself. I know my weightloss will continue once I have the right restriction. Until then, as long as I'm not gaining I'm happy!!!
Good night all!
Jenn
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