I got a fill on Thursday morning. Dr. B and I talked about it and we agreed on 2cc's. I told him that I had very little restriction and apparently the scale moved up a few pounds so it made sense to go for a good fill. I drank water at the office, which they have everyone with a band do before leaving, and I felt fine. While I was driving home though I began to feel stuck. At first I shrugged it off thinking it was nothing and I went on my way. By the time I got home I could barely make it to the bathroom to throw-up. It went down hill from there. At first I thought it would pass but deep down I knew it wouldn't because I had been through the same scenerio so many times before with my old band. By 3:00 I was miserable so I called the office and told them what was going on. Unfortunately Dr. B had gone but I was able to see Dr. Buckley. He took out 1cc and I immediately felt better. I drank my water with ease and went happily on my way.
I'm so glad that I called the office and went in right away instead of ignoring it like I did in the past. With my old band I would go for weeks before going in to the office for an unfill. This time around I'm not taking any chances, it's just not worth it! So, as I mentioned above, the scale moved up a few pounds. I don't know exactly how much because I closed my eyes when I got on the scale. When Dr. B came in to see me he asked me how I was doing. I told him that the past month has been very stressful for me. He replied that he figured something was going on because I had gained a few pounds. At first I thought I might get a little lecture but that's not what happened. He asked me if everything was going okay and when I told him it would take all day to tell him what was going on he said he had time to listen. I have to tell you that this made me feel so much better. I feel like he really cares about his patients and is invested in our care. I took a few minutes to explain where my stress is coming from and how it has been affected me. I was honest about not exercising and that although I'm not binging like I use to, I'm certainly eating more that before. He was very understanding and encouraging. I left the office feeling much more motivated.
I understand that my experiences may to similar to some and differant from others. I am honest with what I write and I do my best to keep it real. I do not work for the hospital nor do I have any friends or relatives who do so there is nothing to gain from me speaking positively about my experiences. This journey has not been an easy one for me by any means but it has been such a learning experience. I have grown so much as a person and have learned so much about who I am and why I have had so many issues with food. As challenging as it has been, I wouldn't change it because I have discovered a life that doesn't revolve around food. It's a great place to be! I don't expect the road ahead to be an easy one but I'm ready to face any challenge that stands before me!
Good night all,
Jenn
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